‘Wishful Thinking Isn’t Thinking’

I continuously try to ‘live in the moment’ but I am often not successful. Today the sun is shining and Rory McIlroy just won his second Canadian Open. While it is exciting  for so many of us, for so many reasons, part of my day was spent supporting a dear friend, who is waiting for a diagnosis.  Is the sun is still shining? The ‘waiting’ some say, may be worse than the diagnosis – because it is a moment in time when everything stands still. Life was wonderful as we know it or should I say knew it, but with everything possibly about to change, it is very hard to stay in the moment. The unknown, or the fear of the diagnosis (or test results) is that life, as we know it, is about to change.  Does it feel like a life sentence or is it a death sentence?  Nothing is guaranteed and nothing is promised.  It is amazing how dreams of the future can be erased so quickly.  The dream may be gone but the hurt and sorrow and grief can last a long time.  Today was a rude reminder to be grateful for what we have – at this moment.  Worry will always find us so there is no need in feeling it, drowning in it and being angry, about the ‘what if’s-  until we know.  Until then, I am celebrating Rory McIlroy’s excitement.